There are times when I walk through life knowing that Jesus is walking beside me. I can feel his eyes on me while I ramble on at him and he's listening to my every word and then I listen back and grab on to His every word and every breath that forms His every word. These are the times that I feel as though He may explode right out of my chest! At any moment.
Then there are other times. Times that I talk and talk and don't listen much. I'm just talking out of the feeling of obligation rather than persueing our relationship and pressing into Him. My husband is in San Antonio for work and if I felt that He was only talking to me out of obligation I would be really annoyed and tell him to just forget it. Jesus doesn't do that. He simply waits with no expectation, waits for me to desire communion, waits for me to hush and relax and listen.
I've been so distracted lately getting excited about all of these new adventures that I forgot about the one who put the excitement in my path. I've only been talking to Him not listening. And at the same time complainign to Him that i couldn't feel His presence wondering what happened to our electrifying connection.
So finally I asked Jesus, "Where are you? I feel like you've left me. And He said, "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." (Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV)
He's just waiting for me to long for Him again. He doesn't ever force a relationship and when we get caught up with other things He sits down and waits patiently. He knows where I'm going and where I've been and He's walking with me and at the same time waiting for me.
This is what attracts me to Jesus... He's bigger than the universe. His majesty can not be defined by words but at the same time He's intimately loving me and longing for little old me to long for Him.